万圣节的糖果快要吃光了，

不爱吃糖的孩子开始迷恋甜蜜的味道。

刚从昏睡中醒来，

呆坐了一下午，

看窗外的云越压越低，

雨越滴越密，

这是一个台风的登陆，

接下来几天都没的飞了。

 

把温度调到最高，

只穿一件宽大的T-shirt盘在床上，

头脑中被一些本以为都很清楚的繁杂占据着。

背景音乐换做如下：

 

I was given wine
We're feeling okay
And quite all right
You wash my tears away
And make me wanna stay
And bonfires lit up the shores

 

(Wa fa fa-wey)
To go beside you
Is where I want to be
(Wa fa fa-wey)
To laugh, to love

 

Days of roses and wine
Drifting astray
With your hand in mine
You stroke my fears away
And make me wanna stay
And bonfires lit up the shores

 

(Wa fa fa-wey)
To go beside you
Is where I want to be
(Wa fa fa-wey)
To laugh, to love

 

(Wa fa fa-wey)
Where to go and hide?
We're going to the sea
(Wa fa fa-wey)
To laugh, to love

 

And this is how it went;
I am here to stay
Roaring with the wind
There's life within

 

This is what I give
A circle is complete
Another circle spins
There's life within
Within

嘘～请让我躲在自己营造的诡秘气氛里待一会……

换个BGM，

算是盗链过来的，

所以换了个版本，

 

A la claire fontaine
M’en allant promener
J’ai trouvé l’eau si belle
Que je m’y suis baignée

Il y’a longtemps que je t’aime
Jamais je ne t’oublierai

Sous les feuilles d'un chêne
Je me suis fait sécher
Sur la plus haute branche
Le rossignol chantait

Il y’a longtemps que je t’aime
Jamais je ne t’oublierai

Chante, rossignol, chante
Toi qui as le cœur gai
Tu as le cœur à rire
Moi je l’ai à pleurer

Il y’a longtemps que je t’aime
Jamais je ne t’oublierai

C’est pour mon ami Pierre
Qui ne veut plus m’aimer
Pour un bouton de rose
Que je lui refusais

Il y’a longtemps que je t’aime
Jamais je ne t’oublierai

J’ai perdu mon ami
Sans l’avoir mérité
Pour un bouquet de roses
Que je lui refusais

Il y’a longtemps que je t’aime
Jamais je ne t’oublierai

 

另一崩溃性消息，

我于加拿大开户的信用卡被银行寄回中国了……

vivi

Every takeoff is optional. Every landing is mandatory.

 

Always try to keep the number of landings you make

equal the number of take offs you've made.

 

When in doubt，hold on to your altitude.

No-one has ever collided with the sky.

 

The probability of survival is inversely proportional to the angle of arrival.

Large angle of arrival，small probability of survival and vice versa.

 

The three most useless things to a pilot

are the altitude above you，runway behind you and a tenth of a second ago.

 

换歌，黄立行，无神论，很久没贴中文歌了

靴子、防雪裤搞定，初步装箱，最后等待……

 

我希望相信世界有
奇迹出现
我想要我们的童话
不只是瞬间
我希望今后都能快乐
永不分离
但我上不去天堂
我不能够陪你
不存在一种永恒
不相信世界有神
死亡是不是终点
会停止想念
不能再亲吻你的脸
不管我有多怀念
我真的希望我们快乐
永不分离
只有你能上天堂
我到不了那里
只要想念没改变
不管多远
我会在你心里面

死亡是不是终点
会停止想念
不能再亲吻你的脸
不管我有多怀念

I Bruise Easily

Natasha Bedingfield

My skin is like a map, of where my heart has been
And I can't hide the marks, but it's not a negative thing
So I let down my guard, drop my defences, down by my clothes
I'm learning to fall, with no safety net, to cushion the blow

I bruise easily, so be gentle when you handle me
There's a mark you leave, like a love heart, carved on a tree
I bruise easily, can't scratch the surface without moving me
Underneath I bruise easily, I bruise easily

I found your finger prints on a glass of wine
Do you know your leaving them all over this heart of mine too
If I never take this leap of faith I'll never know
So I'm learning to fall with no safety net to cushion the blow

I bruise easily, so be gentle when you handle me
There's a mark you leave, like a love heart carved on a tree
I bruise easily, can't scratch the surface without moving me
Underneath I bruise easily, I bruise easily

Anyone who, can touch you, can hurt you, or heal you
Anyone who, can reach you, can love you, or leave you

So be gentle
So be gentle
So be gentle
So be gentle

I bruise easily, so be gentle when you handle me
There's a mark you leave, like a love heart, carved on a tree
I bruise easily, can't scratch the surface without moving me
Underneath I bruise easily, I bruise easily

I bruise easily, so be gentle when you handle me
There's a mark you leave, like a love heart, carved on a tree
I bruise easily, can't scratch the surface without moving me
Underneath I bruise easily, I bruise easily

I bruise easily
I bruise easily

 

 

换个背景音乐 来自Garlos Gardel的

por una cabeza——一步之遥

 

 

 

给卞校长瘫痪的机器重新做了系统，

吃了卞校长和王主任一起忙活的饭菜，

将油门踩到底赶上1点的机场大巴，

回到宿舍开始例行扫除，

完成每天的健身计划，洗澡，

现在——终于，可以捧一杯冲淡了的芝麻糊，

陷在椅子里了……

 

窗户窗帘门隔断了外面的时间，

不必开灯，把音乐开开，

发现最近增添的播放列表里面都是很应时的音乐，

这里鲜有人来了，

还真是想，某时某刻某地，

某一个像我此刻忙乱之后喘息的人，

可以坐下来，我们一起，

听音乐……

Alexi Murdoch - Orange Sky

Well I had a dream
I stood beneath an orange sky
Yes I had a dream
I stood beneath an orange sky
With my brother standing by
With my brother standing by
I said Brother, you know you know
It’s a long road we've been walking on
Brother you know it is you know it is
Such a long road we've been walking on

And I had a dream
I stood beneath an orange sky
With my sister standing by
With my sister standing by
I said Sister, here is what I know now
Here is what I know now
Goes like this..
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, in your love, in your love

But sister you know I'm so weary
And you know sister
My hearts been broken
Sometimes, sometimes
My mind is too strong to carry on
Too strong to carry on

When I am alone
When I've thrown off the weight of this crazy stone
When I've lost all care for the things I own
That's when I miss you, that's when I miss you, that's when I miss you
You who are my home

 

头疼

懒懒地说什么

是打心眼里的那种厌恶

来放首歌

出自ashora jo no hitomi的原声

电影曾看得心潮澎湃

刚才睡梦中ipod里传来的这首遗忘已久的声音

从精神和肉体的双重虚脱中唤醒

Blues in my heaven
All in her hands
Buried so deep down
Light can't even reach

 

Are they still caught inside?

All they wanted is to be alive

 

Blues under heaven
Without a doubt
Counting all the regrets won't help you smile again

 

You have to find a way
A way to feel alive

 

Tell me why things have changed
Tell me why I can't let go

 

Try to look above,

then you might see the sun
Try to reach my hand,

then you might feel the warmth

 

Spread out the wings I didn't even have
I called out your name,

nothing is stopping me

 

There were things I never even tried to understand
All the things she said I never really listened to

 

Heart starts to beat again

 

Tell me why,tell me how
Tell me what to do
Tell me where to go
Tell me please,tell me now
Tell me what is true
Tell me what I should believe

 

I'm trying so hard not to let go

 

Blues in my heaven
Can someone hear my voice?

 

你总是会看不懂，这次呢……？

总觉得自己的思维是处在萎缩状态的，

翻看过去自己写的东西，

真的好像在被过去的自己教育，

看看——在我面对生死的时候……

 

Death is also one kind of relationships between life and you.

 

You go in the river.

Gradually the river grows wider,
the banks recede, the waters flow more quietly,

and in the end, without any visible breaks

you've become merged in the sea,

lose your individual being.

 

And at last you may find that

death is just something that

you've met for the first time.

That is all about it.

 

这是高中的我看待死亡，

那么今天呢，在7年之后，

我又会怎样面对呢？

站在死神对面，

一脸茫然无谓。

有点同情他，我指死神，

因为，感谢上帝，决定这一切的，

是他，不是我……

 

ps：换个背景音乐，

      you will be my ain true love

      from original soundtrack of cold moutain

      You'll walk unscathed through musket fire,
      No ploughman's blade will cut thee down,
      No cutless wound will mark thy face
      And you will be my ain true love,
      And you will be my ain true love

      And as you walk through death's dark veil,
      The cannon's thunder can't prevail,
      And those who hunt thee down will fail,
      And you will be my ain true love,
      And you will be my ain true love.

      Asleep inside the cannon's mouth,
      The captain cries, "Here comes the rout,"
      They'll seek to find me north and south,
      I've gone to find my ain true love.

      The field is cut and bleeds to red.
      The cannon balls fly round my head,
      The infirmary man may count me dead,
      When I've gone to find my ain true love,
      I've gone to find my ain true love

最近经常有大段路上的时间，

于是也多了大段的时间听ipod，

把金属摩擦还有旁人的嘈杂都盖掉，

国航的人看到我这样对待自己的耳朵一定抓狂，

呵呵，我不管。

 

听厌了“最近添加”的播放列表，

开始随机播放我庞大的曲库，

这个曲库可以连续播放七天，

这样浩如烟海的基数，

一首曾经苦苦追寻的歌很容易被湮没，

我需要的正是这样的机会，

能让我再从角落中发现他们。

 

今天无意听到了michael bubble的一首home，

甚至拿google都不能搜到它的歌词，

但那温柔的声音，

却似绕指柔剑剑穿心。

 

这首歌我姑且存下，

待到明天再贴上来，

欢迎一个人的归来。

 

一下午的经历，

一晚上的畅想，

我们都看到了，

都看到了，

其实，

我们可以很幸福。

 

对了，

针对国航严谨飞行员26岁前严禁结婚的规定，

我做出以下处理决定，

开着国航的飞机去梵蒂冈找个教堂把婚结了，

请大家鼓掌……

唉？我的新娘呢？

我的新娘呢？

 

 

又是今天凌晨才舍得闭上眼睛，

下午不愿意恹恹的待在寝室里，

于是去打球，

哥们看到了我手上的伤口，

无奈地摇了摇头。

 

晚饭喝了自己煲的蛋黄肉丝粥，

饭后去水果店买西瓜，

走在路上，有舒服的风，

淡淡的疲倦，真是舒服极了。

为了纪念稍纵即逝的，

昨晚的焦急以及无奈感慨，

今晨莫明的鹅毛大雪，

为一切事后找不到痕迹的……

 

换一首背景音乐，

出自日剧《1升的眼泪》，

粉雪，

 

粉雪舞う季节はいつもすれ违い

人混みに纷れても同じ空见てるのに

风に吹かれて 似たように冻えるのに

 

仆は君の全てなど知ってはいないだろう

それでも一亿人から君を见つけたよ

根拠はないけど本気で思ってるんだ

 

些细な言い合いもなくて同じ时间を生きてなどいけない 

素直になれないなら 喜びも悲しみも虚しいだけ

粉雪 ねえ 心まで白く染められたなら

二人の孤独を分け合う事が出来たのかい

 

仆は君の心に耳を押し当てて

その声のする方へすっと深くまで

下りてゆきたい そこでもう一度会おう 

 

总是和雪花飞舞的季节擦肩而过

即使站在人群中也能在同一片天空看到

风吹过的话也会感觉同样的寒冷

 

或许我不了解你的一切

但我仍能从茫茫人海中找到你

虽然毫无根据，但这却是真实的

 

既不能琐碎的细说
也不能共存于这个空间
如果不能彼此坦诚
喜悦也否悲伤也否都只是虚无的

粉雪要是可以把心变得纯净

彼此的孤单是否也可以消逝

 

我倾听你的心
直达你的内心深处
想再次的降临
于是我们又再次相见了

歌词不完整，马虎翻译下，

速度估计也不快，

耐心等下吧，发自内心的声音。

感冒，声音很磁性，

心情好了很多，

从mtv听到了一首熟悉的歌，

damien rice的The Blower‘s Daughter。

有人说想起了冬天后海的酒吧，

是啊，有干枯树枝，有雾气朦朦，有看不清面孔的路人

还有紧张的小女孩，呵呵。

 

And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her skies

I can't take my eyes off OF you
I can't take my eyes off OF you
I can't take my eyes off OF you
I can't take my eyes off OF you
I can't take my eyes off OF you
I can't take my eyes...

And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial

I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?

I can't take my mind off OF you
I can't take my mind off OF you...
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind...
My mind...my mind...
Til I find somebody new

还是彻底的感冒了。

老妈今早飞去新加坡，

我和老爸就放羊了，

早晨和老爸一起去吃早点，

吃到了真正的“果子”，

强烈鄙视北京软塌塌的油条，

其实，如果早上起得来，

天津的早点真的是人间极品了。

 

今天球打得很爽，

高中哥们大都洁身自好，

球技都有进步，

整整打了两个小时，

累得半死。

 

中午在津汇吃东西，

见到了在渣打实习的紫菁，

哇噻，女大十八变啊，

人家一副白领的范儿，

再看我一身的hip hop，

差距啊。

 

下午在jeff家打扑克，

乐得我直抽筋，

一下子又找到了几个人歪在他家床上看电影的日子，

每到换盘的时候我们就一起踢他屁股下床去换盘，

那时一屋子的傻小子不穿鞋，味道总是很浓郁……

好无忧无虑的日子啊。

 

现在大家都要各奔前程了，

估计这也是最后一次聚得那么全了，

石头已经在新加坡了，

刘宇失踪中，

赵云会去南方工作吧，

我是要出国的，

jeff也要移民去美国了。

 

晚上jeff开车送我回家，

后面坐着石头和坤哥，

外面华灯初上，

我真的觉得，

我们都长大了。

 

好久没换歌了，

换一首Traveling Light

来自Joel Hanson & Sara Groves

Well I was doubling over the load on my shoulders
Was a weight I carried with me everyday
Crossing miles of frustrations and rivers a raging
Picking up stones I found along the way
I staggered and I stumbled down
Pathways of trouble
I was hauling those souvenirs of misery
And with each step taken my back was breaking
'Til I found the One who took it all from me

Down by the riverside
(Down by the riverside)
I laid my burdens down,
Now I'm traveling light
My spirit lifted high
(I found my freedom now)
I found my freedom now
And I'm traveling light

Through the darkest alleys and loneliest valleys
I was dragging those heavy chains of doubt and fear
Then with the one word spoken the locks were broken
Now He's leading me to places
Where there are no tears

Down by the riverside
(Down by the riverside)
I laid my burdens down,
Now I'm traveling light
My spirit lifted high
(I found my freedom now)
I found my freedom now
And I'm traveling light

Down by the riverside
I laid my burdens down,
Now I'm traveling light
My spirit lifted high
I found my freedom now
And I'm traveling light

Down by the riverside
(Down by the riverside)
I laid my burdens down,
Now I'm traveling light
My spirit lifted high
(I found my freedom now)
I found my freedom now
And I'm traveling light

最近很喜欢这种懒洋洋的东西，

就是揉在酒吧一角看书听音乐的感觉，

唉，又想起后海了，没救了，

Damien Rice的Delicate，

出自他最近比较火的专辑《o》，

这个归folk rock吗？

我不懂，反正喜欢就是了，

 

歌词奉上：

We might kiss when we are alone
When nobody's watching
We might take it home
We might make out when nobody's there
It's not that we're scared
It's just that it's delicate

So why do you fill my sorrow
With the words you've borrowed
From the only place you've know
And why do you sing Hallelujah
If it means nothing to you
Why do you sing with me at all?

We might live like never before
When there's nothing to give
Well how can we ask for more
We might make love in some sacred place
The look on your face is delicate

So why do you fill my sorrow
With the words you've borrowed
From the only place you've know
And why do you sing Hallelujah
If it means nothing to you
Why do you sing with me at all?

So why do you fill my sorrow
With the words you've borrowed
From the only place you've know
And why do you sing Hallelujah
If it means nothing to you
Why do you sing with me at all?

 

la canción antes：http://fs01.139.com/0/410/reddredd/sound/20051020105435988.wma

por los momentos difíciles,

ya entiendo que la flor más bella

sería siempre para mi.

站在提款机前排队，

只穿了一条单裤，没有穿毛衣，

痛苦地缩在外套里面，

看着玻璃反射自己的样子，

真的好颓废，

我失望了，也让别人失望。

 

在提出该怎么选择之前，

突然发现自己两手空空，

什么也没有真正抓在手里，

一个虚幻的等待，

足以承载我对未来的期待么？

 

天气真的冷了，

我真的瘦下来了，

还是看着玻璃中的自己，

突然不知所措起来……

 

another movie：original sin

                          Antonio Banderas
                          Angelina Jolie

another song：Eversleeping

                         Xandria

                         （链接有点慢）

 

Once I travelled 7 seas to find my love
And once I sang 700 songs
Well, maybe I still have to walk 7000 miles
Until I find the one that I belong

I will rest my head side by side
To the one that stays in the night
I will lose my breath in my last words of sorrow
And whatever comes will come soon
Dying I will pray to the moon
That there once will be a better tomorrow

Once I crossed 7 rivers to find my love
And once, for 7 years, I forgot my name
Well, if I have to I will die 7 deaths just to lie
In the arms of my eversleeping aim

I will rest my head side by side
To the one that stays in the night
I will lose my breath in my last words of sorrow
And whatever comes will come soon
Dying I will pray to the moon
That there once will be a better tomorrow (x2)

I dreamt last night that he came to me
He said: "My love, why do you cry?"
For now it won't be long any more
Until in my cold grave we will lie
Until in my cold grave we will lie

 

 

la canción antes: http://su.home.lzu.edu.cn/mp3/mp3/grammy2001/grammy05.mp3

一字一顿地敲下题目，

却再也想不出一个字了，

somewhere in time，

轻轻在心底重复着。

 

曾进仅凭着一段模糊的旋律，

苦苦搜寻。

无数次傻傻哼给别人，

只为求得她的名字。

 

现在我拥有不下10个版本的这首曲子，

而每次听到钢琴前奏想起，

仍然无法摆脱那旋律温柔的纠缠，

在这纠缠中我渐渐渐渐放弃反抗，

直至最终被完全吞噬……

 

距离第一次听这支曲子该有五六年光景了吧，

那时会缩在卧室一角，

在黑暗中沉迷在她的怀抱之中，

心里的委屈也无非来自于久违谋面的父母。

 

今天严严实实裹着衣服，

坐在寝室里，

终于看了以这支曲子为主题曲的电影，

心情却再没有当初的单纯。

 

somewhere in time的标题

其实是《帕格尼尼主题狂想曲》，

是一支温柔多情、缠绵悱恻的钢琴协奏曲。

是俄罗斯作曲家拉赫马尼诺夫于1934年完成的一首钢琴与管弦乐作品，

根据意大利小提琴家帕格尼尼第24首小提琴随想曲的主题而作，编号43。

这首乐曲被导演拿来作为一件重要的音乐道具，

起到了跨越时空、在男女主人公之间沟通心灵的作用。

 

一部1980年的电影，

讲述回到过去的故事，

那是过去的过去了吧。

浪漫得不给道理，

没所谓，既是浪漫，

又何必非要问一个理由呢？

 

男主角是前不久刚刚去世的Christopher Reeve，

也就是最经典的超人的扮演者，

谁能想象身披斗篷的英雄，

会为了寻找自己的爱人，

苦苦穿越时空呢，

而正是在这部片子之后，

一次事故让他高大的身躯再也没有矗立在荧幕之上。

 

女演员Jane Seymour，

我之前一直都不知道她，

而这部片中，她真的是，

真的是美极了……

轻轻仰起的下巴，

永远看不透的眼神，

淡淡的微笑，

为什么脑海中又出现了那张很久都不再出现的面孔？

 

还是不愿过多叙述电影的情节，

只是，如果我有一个回到过去的机会……

我曾经说过，我放弃重新来过一次的机会，

可是，如果给我一个回到过去的机会，

真的想看一看四年前的她，

是什么样子的……

 

不要像collier一样走入她的生活，

只消在角落中看到，

那张熟悉而陌生的面孔，

然后，转身走掉。

你知道吗，

我手里也捏了一枚硬币，

却是2001年的……